how much information do you really want?

i woke up this morning at 6 am because i felt something come out of me. first thought? i just peed, on myself and the couch; fabulous. so i went to the bathroom, and when i turned on the light i could see that it was blood on me. and it was bright red blood. so i started getting scared. we called labor and delivery and they told me to come in. it took about 45 mins to get dressed and get to the hospital, and she never moved. so that made me even more scared. we got in to triage and they put the fetal monitor on me and we heard the heartbeat. it was such a relief. she was still there and her heart was still beating, but she still wasnt moving. i poked, i rubbed my belly, i massaged her and she still didnt move. i know she was sleeping, but i thought some of that would have woken her up, but it didnt. so the nurse gave me some juice and i sat in the bed hooked up to the monitor. about 10 mins later she woke up! and she started moving all around and kicking at the monitor.
2 hours later they finally did an exam on me. my water hadnt broken and all that was happening was apparently the "bloody show." so at least that means that something is happening! and the monitor showed that i was having contractions. only a couple of them were strong enough for me to feel though.
but in all of the classes that we took, every time they talked about "bloody show" they said that if it was bright red, call labor and delivery. they said that it would be kind of pink, or dark red, or brown. they also made it sound like it was just something that you might see when you wipe or a little bit on your underwear. but every time i stand up it feels like it just gushes out! it is so gross!
BUT IT'S A SIGN, SOMETHING IS HAPPENING AND SHE IS ACTUALLY GOING TO COME OUT!!!!

i want her out!!!

so, i had a doctor's appointment today and found out (drum roll please!): NOTHING IS HAPPENING!!!! she is at 0 station, i am 0 cm dilated and only 25% effaced.
i ate a huge prego pizza this weekend, and: nothing.
ive been walking, and: bupkis.
sex: zilch (well, baby-wise, zilch)
i want her out!!!!! i need to do something to make it uncomfortable in there for her. im obviously too generous of a host and provide too comfortable of an environment.
get out baby bling!!!! right now! you have to listen to me, im your mother!
i have another doctors appt next tuesday, at that point they will talk about inducing if she hasnt come yet. but, i wont need that appt, right? cause shes going to be here tomorrow, right?
GET OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

signs, signs, are there any?

no! there arent! bling hasnt dropped, there are no contractions and no signs that i am dilating or efacing. shouldnt some of that be happening if she is going to be born on 10/15 like i told her she is? i can tell she is definitely stronger though. maybe shes planning on coming out through my belly button. does she know that that isnt an exit? but maybe that would be better... that guy from spaceballs looked like he faired a lot better than the women we watched on the birthing videos (hello my honey!), his ordeal was much shorter!





but ive only got 7 days left until shes supposed to be here, shouldnt something be happening?
at least we installed the car seat last night. there is no longer room for passengers in my car. if we need to take a "family" trip somewhere we now have to take 2 cars. we couldnt install it using the LATCH system in the middle of the backseat, so its behind the passenger seat, which has to be a teeny bit past vertical to fit the seat in; comfy! i guess we could just get a new car... oh, wait, i have no income, maybe a new car isnt such a good idea! and i love my car. anyway, im digressing.
tchau.

what do you think baby bling is?

we had our appointment yesterday for the 3-d ultrasound. just as we were about to head into the city i got a phone call from the clinic, they called to inform me that they were running behind and wanted to push my appointment back 30mins. i said "ok," hung-up and was glad that they had the decency to call. this left me with high hopes for the appointment. not only did they seem courteous, but the reason they were so far behind is that the babies weren't cooperating and each appointment took longer than expected to get good pictures, translation, they knew the importance of getting good pictures, they didn't just take your money, slap some goo on your stomach and send you home with a bunch of pictures of knee caps. so we got to south san francisco at 530 to see some pictures of our baby ling. at 608 we were still waiting for them to finish up with the people before us. i think it was about 630 when they finally called us in. so i hopped up on the table (ok, so i used the step stool and kind of flopped on it) and waited to see the pictures of our little bling. he started with the 2-d pictures, the same ones that they do at the dr's office, to check the placement and see if i was going to have to move around so we could get some good shots. we saw the grainy, fuzzy little profile of our baby. he zoomed in on the head and switched to 3-d. i was pretty cool. then, he went back to 2-d to tell us the gender of the baby. he said we came at a good time to tell the sex, the baby isn't too big or too small. so i rolled over so he could get a good angle. so he poked around for a little bit and was able to get a good shot to tell us what the gender is. it was so weird to hear... now we know what bling is! it's so strange to know now.
so then he took some more pictures, but baby bling started to turn. so i had to get up on my knees and elbows and wait for baby bling to turn around. it was very uncomfortable. but, as you can see, we got some good pictures of our little baby bling!
it's getting so close, it's terrifying! i cant believe we are going to have a baby in our house soon. bruno spent last weekend painting the baby's room. he is redoing the closet now and it looks really good. we are moving furniture back in there today.

second chance

we have an appointment on saturday to try and find out if we have a bling-O or a bling-A. let's hope it cooperates!

cankles

i am so glad that when we were in london we decided that cankles were a sign of royalty, i am so swollen i should be empress of the earth now! apparently just sitting at my desk causes ever ounce of fluid within my body (that isnt in my increasingly small bladder) to flow directly to my ankles. its really disgusting. my little toes seem to peek out from underneath my giant fat balloon foot. ive tried drinking massive amounts of water, but it doesnt help. it probably is counter-acted by the fact that the baby likes salty food. what am i to do?

craziest science experiment ever

i can now see the baby move from the outside. my belly jumps every time the baby moves. its odd how much things can change over a short period of time. when i went to san diego last weekend lisa could barely feel it. now i can actually see it moving. OMG!!!! freaking out! it is gonna be here so soon and we are so not prepared!!!!!